"We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty.” - Maya Angelou

Aloha Frands!

I know that this is probably not how you expected to enter into May. At home, quarantined and ready to risk it all for a little glimpse of outside and doing hoodrat things with our hoodrat friends again.( No, Just me!?) I honestly I did not see this Black Mirror episode of 2020 replaying over and over again but here we are. My anxiety and stress levels have been at an all time high. From worries of Corona to being placed in inactive status at work, these 8 weeks of quarantine have had my emotions all over the place but there has been a silver lining. The best way I can describe it as being like the the 5 steps of grief(stick with me for a moment…. I’m going somewhere with this lol). This process has taken me on an emotional roller coaster bouncing from one end of the spectrum to the other and as we are stepping into May, I feel myself entering into the Acceptance stage. And with the emergent of this stage, I feel that I am in a birthing season.

Now, before you start thinking crazy, I am NOT pregnant! Though bae and I have mastered #quaratineandchill, we have yet to figure out how to make this thang populate into 2 girls and baby…. but don’t give up on us just yet…to be continued.

When I speak of birthing season, I am referring to being in a space where YOU are being created, evolving and breathing life into projects, opportunities and purpose. That is how I feel about the upcoming month and rest of 2020. There is something in this pandemic experience we are living through and even my own personal ones from the last year, that has led me to this moment where I can now see that there is something bigger connected to why ALL this is necessary to pivot into what is next. Can you relate to this?

Ironically, May is the month where we celebrate mothers( who do most of the birthing…haha) and losing mine over a year ago set the stage for a series of losses that I wasn’t sure I was going to EVER recover from. As I shared in my post, Lost & Found , life can truly whip your ass and will leave you crying out and feeling real funky. But what is birthed through such pain and hurt can be the TRUTH! Even the most f*cked up situations can create life changing realizations and evolution, if you let it.

Frand, that is what this time is for, a space where you can birth something new or even reconnect with a lost opportunity. And don’t think it has to be on some grand level where you change everything in your life and uproot it. It can be birthing healthier practices on how you talk to yourself and the self love and healing you give, it can be birthing new family traditions like weekly Sunday Zoom chats or a new drive to take that course or apply for that job. There is no limit on WHAT can come from this time when you allow yourself the ability to birth something new. So move out of your OWN way and lets get to birthing!